Mapping the Swamp
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I gave birth last month. In the days and weeks following the birth I have found myself feeling porous, watery, emotional. The lack of sleep, the hormones, the shifting family constellation have me wading through a swampy inner landscape that is at turns light, euphoric, mundane, melancholic and muddy. I have felt moments of drowning – an experience that overtook me for months last time I had a baby.* A few days after the birth, my midwife (how I love her) suggested that I ‘map the swamp’: to find a way to make my inner world visible. And so I did. I took a pen and paper and mapped with words: the sparkling shallows the skittish fish the slippery edges the sinkholes I mapped the truly putrid ancient hollows (you know the ones I mean -- when you fall in, it feels like the whole world has its back turned to you) I mapped the diligent reeds the sunshine and the boardwalk where you can watch dragonflies with dry feet I considered the sanctity of wetlands -- sinking carbon purifying water Forty percent of all plant and animal life on Earth lives or breeds in swamps The process of mapping my inner landscape returned me to something which I have arrived at many times in my life: when we make the intangible tangible, it transforms. This simple calculus is the heart of the healing power of making art. When we bring something of our inner world into the physical world – through writing, drawing, singing, moving, sculpting, it has the opportunity to be seen and recognised, and to evolve through the act of creation. Whatever the intangible thing is (a story, a feeling, a worldview), when we ‘make tangible’ we aren’t simply recording something which is fully formed within us; we are creating it anew. Our relationship with it changes. When I mapped my swamp, my relationship to the different parts of the swamp changed. When I arrived in the ‘sinkhole’ in the middle of the night, it was no longer a dark, nameless and endless place that stretched forever into my past and future; rather it was one place within a wider landscape, and I knew it was possible to come out of it onto drier land. What is alive in your inner landscape at the moment? Tell me – I always love to hear from you! xxx Rata *I wrote about this in my Arts Therapy dissertation Dreaming with my Body: Arts-Based Research, Expressive Arts Therapy and New Motherhood. You can read excerpts of it here and here. P.S. Next year I really want you to make your art and I am offering a new programme to support you to do it. 'Make It Tangible' is a 6-month mentorship programme for sensitive revolutionaries to bring their secret creative dreams from the world of imagination into the world of tangible reality. You will learn essential tools to harness your creative power, so you can make the art and the impact you are here to make. There are different levels to choose from, to suit you needs: whether you just want more creative play in your life, you want to start taking bigger creative risks, or you want deep support to birth something big. We kick off in January 2023. Let me know if you’re interested and I’ll make sure you are the first to know when bookings open. |
